HAPPY BDAY TO ME!:))

I wan;t going to say anything but I can't not. Its the first ever birthday that I feel I have got to shout about. Its been the hardest year of my life. Its been the most challanging and thinking about it the most scary ever. Still, I can say I have been the most content happy and thats not only due to my hormonal state! My bday week has been good. Wednesday my lovely friends "Camille" have surpised me. I wanted to surprise them and got them fish and chips with no alchool ...and they not only gave me fab news, they also got me cards, presents and fantastic cake! THANKS. Today, I have been swapt with attention again....and people remebered me thats also so cute. I went to the shop to buy some small cup cakes and the lady found out it was my bday and gave me the most delicious tart ever! Then this evening we had white wine and kebab (lazy to cook) and messages keep comming. Tomorrow, my friends are taking me out for breakfast which is ever so cute....then I have the afternoon all to myself.
Interestingly this year I really did not know what I wanted for my bday and whatever I kept thinking felt inapropriate or irrelevant or just not a real need. Then I digged down deep and found my heart was saying things that money can;t buy and I knew thats what I really want.
I started already getting a lot of these without even saying much and that for me shows that someone up there directs the hearts and minds of people....it moves me to tears to think that the unspoken, the burried away thoughts and prayers can become real things.
33 I am tomorrow and I believe this is the perfect age...I am gona love it and embrace it! I know I am under construction permanently but I am feeling so blessed to have had such an exciting, scary and adventurous journey so far....I know things are not always bright but I CAN SAY I BELIEVE IN THE SUN EVEN I DON:T ALWAYS SEE IT I BELIEVE IN GOD EVEN I CAN:T SEE HIM!

Sziasztok!:)) Nem akartam semmit sem irni a blogra ugyanis szulinapi miset nem akarok am tartanni. Eletem egyik legnehezebb elet eve volt ez az ev es tele kihivasokkal ...de valahogy soha sem voltam ennyire kiteljesedett es megelegedett es tudom ez nem csak a hormonok nak koszonheto. Szerdan a Camille biblia csoportos lanyok keszitettek igazi meglepetest ugyanis en akartam oket meglepni hallal es sut krumplival amivel be is allitottam de ok viszont mar vartak egy szuper jo hirrel (ugyanis egyikuk babat var 6 eves a kisfia es azota allanodan remenykedik) aztan csomo kis edes szulinapi meglepi es egy nagyon finom torta!:))de a legjobba kompania volt. Aztan Csutortokon ma kovetkeztek a szep kepeslapok a meghato smsek. Holnap masik baratnoim visznek reggelizni es utanna meg magamra is jut ido...magammal. Azon gondolkoztam mar par napja mi az amit is szeretnek hisz mindenki mindeg megkerdezi...de barmire gondoltam olyan folsleges nek tunt es nem igazi kivansagnak. Mar ne ertsetek felre ugyanis kene nekem sok minden de valahogy nem ereztem hogy ha megkapnam olyan nagy elszallo oromet okozna. Aztan tovabb kutatgattam magamban es feltalatam rabukantam arra amit igazan szeretnek csak az a baj azt nem lehet sem megvasarolni sem kerni az amit kivanok az olyasmi amit egyszeruen mint a kegyelmet megkapod....es ahogy neztem nagyba korulottem a heten latom szallingozni mindenfelol ...hat nem erdekes hogy meg ki sem mondjuk a szot es valaki odafent mar ismeri azt es mar mevalaszolja szivunk kereseit vagyait...most ezert vagyok halas es azert hogy ebben az eveben el tudom mondanni "hiszek a napban akkor is ha nem ragyog, hiszek Istenben akkor is ha nem latom"...
33 evet toltok es eldontottem buszke leszek erre es orommel nezek ele!:))