Well I certainly did not expect us all to become so ill during advent! I had plans some good well thought out plans for the dark evenings yet first week of Advent meant I had to watch Reuben burn with fever for about three days after which he did not seem to get better that much. What I thought was gona pass was about 1 week long illness with antibiotics and culminating with him being unable to walk for nearly a whole day something that was explained to me as the virus getting to the legs and causing something that is almost like arthroitis?!...thank God he seemed to have gotten over it so no need to go hospital. It really has got us more in tune with each other. That week we had slept in eachothers beds literraly. Reuben was very weak and needed mummy so slept with him, most nights he had one or two nose bleeds too so that also frightened him. Daddy slept in Reuben's double bed....and watched over Zac...but often it would seem by the morning we would have all been somewhere else than our on beds....I even tried out the spare room one very difficult night when I was tired and needed a couple of ours of sleep. Zac was coping relativley well however missed his little fights with Reuben. I knew R was not well as he never seemed to welcome Zac;s pleeds for fights and such. I watched that extraordinary unexplainable thing that touched me. I asked Zac often to be considerate with R who would be burning with fever and asleep while Zac played next to him....and he would respond by putting his fingers on his mouth saying "sorry buben" and walk with me in the kitchen leaving toys behind happily to do something else. (this would never happen under normal circumstances of course). He even kissed R goodnite and walked upsairs without his brother....! reuben was missed every morning when Zac went in his bedroom and found a rather large BUBEN (in the form of daddy)...his question was "buben?" he was so happy when reunited with R downstairs. So as we were housebound for over a week...we decided to put up both the handmade Christmas Advent Calendar and the Christmas Tree. Off course I don;t like my calendar as I did not get it done to perfection and I ended up seeing lots more interesting ones off course...but boys got very excited they liked it. The putting up of their Christmas tree will be forever treasured. They got soooo excited. Zac mainly took the decs off while me and R were gently placing them back on.
This CHristmas tree is very special. You wont probably see but there are some cute little characters there decorations from grannny all wooden and handpainted which she probably had for some time. Some of the other decorations are as old as Reuben. I tend to go tranditional as I think its colourfull and rich just like the story of Christmas. I am still to make their Christmas stockings and that is another challange...however 2-3 week of Advent meant Zac got very ill and now I am ill too....yes fever, weakness and tierdness not very nice.....still...so much to be thankful for.
I love his prayers and his understanding of things. I wish I could embrace it so eagerly too God that is....but often I am ratty, irritable, frustrated...and the life that I chase gets in my way to be that simple and eager God loving person. Perhaps its a time I can start that....?! - Well i do each time when my son tells me how much he loves God. This week he has told me about the story of the temple in Jerusalem where a light was always burning....and Hannukah. I quickly quizzed Jeff Salter his Godfather (who is Jewish) and updated myself on the story....I was so encouraged....the candle was the sign that God was never ever away from his people....wow! Reuben is facinated with candles and so we have candles burning everywhere. Yes, God is with us! I deeply believe that too....!
At church on Sunday, we had toy service. He my lovley Reuben while we listened to the service prepared this. I loved it so daddy took a photo. I was so pleased when we went to buy toys for other children, both Reuben followed by Zac have spent their own pocket money and left the shop without something for themselves....I AM TERRIBLY PROUD. I wish I could be like them too...but I am sight tracked easily...often.
So now that we are well into Advent, a few good lessons have been learnt....although I had already managed to not do unnecessary busy and crazy shopping, write thousands of cards and respond to the 21st century must have demmands.....I am pleased to say I feel good (even I am ill) I am glad we are safe and warm and really hope we can all be enjoying a very happy Christmas. I hope and pray Reuben gets his prayer answered and his wonderful God who is the coolest transformer ever can indeed show his special care and send some snow just enough to let him feel HIS special assurance of LOVE. Happy Christmas Everyone! Remember to treasure the moments, have loads of cuddles and tantrums....swich on or off as required....by your own heart and soul. Tune in and out as you feel is appropriate but most of all embrace that who is the reason for the season...JESUS! I will, we will at least try and mean to do so.
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