Hello
We have managed to get to the bumps now mums and babies group! It was really good! we had two days without granny and Rebeka so we could get used to each other! Me and Reuben had some difficulties first day yesterday we cried and screamed and now we have got used to each other better and to the space and quite aound us! I find it amazing that I feel so many new feelings that I never thought I would! being a mum has brought with it that constant lump in the belly called worry no matter what my "pumpkin son" is doing. If he sleeps I wonder if he can breath ok, if he is warm, maybe cold....if he is awake and quite I wonder if he is ok...should I talk to him or perhaps not disturb him....if he cries I worry its hunger, sickness, wet nappies etc...if daddy picks him up I wonder if he does it right or should he be more gentle should he do this or that....its like being on a constant look out! If we are out and about I worry that the wind blows to hard, the sun is too hot and the rain might be too cold....gosh this sounds like I have gone bonkers! But I am generally just amazed at all these new protective and slightly pshychotic feelings and instincts. Never the less its nice....when R cuddles up to me and looks into my eyes with his deep blue ocean like eyes I am lost of words...(yes even me can get lost for words) and I would do it all over again....
The pictures are those of R today with Jasmin and Cameron! Unfortunaley Thomas and mum Stella left too early before I had the chance to take a photo! xx M
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Ó, nagyon aranyos a Ruben! Milyen pelyhes a hajacskája! Szépek vagytok ! És ne aggódj, lassan megtalálod az egyensúlyt az aggodásban is, ugy mint ahogy az a szerelemmel is volt anno:) Az egészséges féltést, szeretetet.
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